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Impact: back to trauma
http://impactplasticbag.blogspot.com/2010/10/back-to-trauma.html
In which i share some efforts to cope with the huge impacts on my life of one cataclysmic event and years of mental illness. Wednesday, October 13, 2010. Because it keeps coming back, keeps getting triggered. That's what. Makes it a disorder,. So they tell me. I dropped Otto off at the airport today at. Around 8am. The accident happened at. Around 8am after I had dropped Otto off at the airport. Different countries, different destinations, but. It's a trigger now, something similar to superstition. But s...
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Impact: more thoughts on being the sea
http://impactplasticbag.blogspot.com/2011/03/more-thoughts-on-being-sea.html
In which i share some efforts to cope with the huge impacts on my life of one cataclysmic event and years of mental illness. Monday, March 7, 2011. More thoughts on being the sea. I feel buffeted by forces more within me than without. I know I am immensely fortunate not to have my life or bodily integrity threatened on a daily basis. Nevertheless I indulge myself in feeling cursed by all the things that bite, beat and infect me from the inside. The sun is an external force acting on the sea. I started th...
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Impact: Electro-Convulsive Psychotic Catatonia
http://impactplasticbag.blogspot.com/2011/07/electro-convulsive-psychotic-catatonia.html
In which i share some efforts to cope with the huge impacts on my life of one cataclysmic event and years of mental illness. Tuesday, July 5, 2011. Yes, you read right. I recently resorted to ECT, or. Out of desperation to rid myself of the continuous desire. In ECT they anesthetize you, paralyze you and then. The best I can understand is that it's similar to hitting. When your computer freezes up. It restarts your brain, sort of. The good news - it made me feel better about being alive. Trying to wake up.
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Impact: Stupid Rape
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In which i share some efforts to cope with the huge impacts on my life of one cataclysmic event and years of mental illness. Sunday, October 24, 2010. Whenever I imagine being raped,. I am screaming, clawing, biting, and fighting to. The death to prevent being. I can't imagine being in my skin afterwards. And yet, when I actually was. Raped in real life,. I didn't scream, or shove. It was a Stupid Rape. I went to the beach the next day, and. Lay on the sand,. I was in Miami Beach. Alone, on the way.
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Impact
http://impactplasticbag.blogspot.com/2011/04/i-havent-been-able-to-write-lately-ive.html
In which i share some efforts to cope with the huge impacts on my life of one cataclysmic event and years of mental illness. Monday, April 11, 2011. I haven't been able to write lately I've. Not really been able to think. The pills have plugged the holes in my head that. Let in the gremlins of self-destruction. But those same holes seem to have been the ones that let in. So my creativity is suffocated. I'm used to having more ideas and flights of inspiration than I can usefully develop. Love you, Jess.
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Impact: 7/10/11 - 7/17/11
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In which i share some efforts to cope with the huge impacts on my life of one cataclysmic event and years of mental illness. Friday, July 15, 2011. More notes on psychosis. I got dehydrated from vomiting, which could have concentrated the levels of the medications in my blood and contributed to the problem. I thought i was dreaming, but the dream was taking way too long. I kept waiting to wake up, kept trying to wake myself up. Thinking you are in a dream is a psychotic symptom. I couldn't use the restro...
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Impact: dance fever
http://impactplasticbag.blogspot.com/2010/11/dance-fever.html
In which i share some efforts to cope with the huge impacts on my life of one cataclysmic event and years of mental illness. Tuesday, November 16, 2010. I used to dance a lot. I used to teach b-girl basics. I lost interest in pretty dance and became intrigued with uncomfortable movements. I moved to Nicaragua. Now I'm in Spain, where I've been watching amazing videos by yak films. They made me want to dance again. Outside the US you can still see a better-quality version from YouTube (I hope):. There was...
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Impact: More notes on psychosis
http://impactplasticbag.blogspot.com/2011/07/more-notes-on-psychosis.html
In which i share some efforts to cope with the huge impacts on my life of one cataclysmic event and years of mental illness. Friday, July 15, 2011. More notes on psychosis. I got dehydrated from vomiting, which could have concentrated the levels of the medications in my blood and contributed to the problem. I thought i was dreaming, but the dream was taking way too long. I kept waiting to wake up, kept trying to wake myself up. Thinking you are in a dream is a psychotic symptom. I couldn't use the restro...
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Impact: Reflections on a Sacred Killing / Eid al Adha
http://impactplasticbag.blogspot.com/2010/11/reflections-on-sacred-killing-eid-al.html
In which i share some efforts to cope with the huge impacts on my life of one cataclysmic event and years of mental illness. Tuesday, November 16, 2010. Reflections on a Sacred Killing / Eid al Adha. Eid – celebration, or festival (in Arabic). Eid al-Adha / Solemn fesitval of Abraham/Ibrahim. In this case, the celebration of God allowing Abraham to keep his son for another day. I remember this story from Hebrew Sunday School and. In my childish way. The Sunday School version made me angry. Give me a sheep.
